The realization started a couple years ago when my mom made a somewhat off-handed comment about how Tim and I are always have our faces down in our phones. It really stuck with me. And, what’s more, it really bothered me. I don’t want to be the kind of person who is often disengaged in the world as it happens around me. I want to be present and active for my friends, for my family, for my job, so I’ve been thinking about it a lot. And I’ve been noticing how right she was, and how the world is more and more isolated, even though there are so many people we could actually interact with on a regular basis.
I’ve noticed that my neck is often bent over my phone. Or my iPad. Or looking at my laptop. Or so many things. For me, it’s social media. I check Facebook, Twitter and Instagram way more than is really necessary. I check Facebook and then recheck it just a few moments later. I wait for new Tweets to pop up even though I really really don’t need to be interested.
For other people, it’s news sites, blogs, or photo sites. For some people it’s following entertainment or playing games. For other it’s probably something even darker.
My “need” to always know what is going on in social media means that I spend way too much time comparing myself with other people. I am jealous of successes of friends, even when I should just be happy for them. I feel like I’m not living enough of my life, when I am actually doing a really good job living for the most part.
So, I know something needs to change. I am going to do my best to do something about it. That means less time on Facebook and Twitter. Less time on Instagram and Pinterest. More time engaging with my husband. I will put my phone down more and look people in the eye. I will be better at being in the world.
My name is Emily and I am a technology addict.
Admitting it is the first step to recovery.