As part of the She Reads Truth community, they are inviting women to write their own devotions on Fridays. Today’s is based on Psalm 130. For more information, to to shereadstruth.com or look up the #shesharestruth hashtag on twitter or Facebook.
I am in a season of waiting. I’ve been in this season for a long time now, it feels like. I’ve been waiting for something to change and be different. The hardest part is that in this season, I haven’t been able to clearly articulate what it is that I’m waiting for – there are a thousand possibilities, and they all have some sort of value.
But, regardless, I wait.
And wait some more.
And then a moment comes; a moment where I feel like the waiting may be ending and changing and…then it’s not. So I go back to waiting. And waiting. And waiting some more.
Psalm 130:5-6 (MSG) says,
I pray to God—my life a prayer—
and wait for what he’ll say and do.
My life’s on the line before God, my Lord,
waiting and watching till morning,
waiting and watching till morning.
I’ve never been good at waiting. I’m not good at being patient. I don’t like not having the answers. I want to be pro-active and active. I want to be moving forward in every aspect of my life, but I’m learning the more I push for movement when it’s not the right time, the more tired, stressed and angry I become. I become dissatisfied with my life because I want to be the catalyst for my own change. The reality is so different, though. I do not have to be the person pushing change in my life.
If I spent half the time praying for God to lead my life as I spent trying to push all the pieces into the frame I think is right, I cannot imagine the peace, the comfort, the stillness that would envelop me and change me. The path would be clearer and the way to make my passions the center of my life would be obvious. This Psalm is not about doing nothing but praying, but instead about remembering to start with praying. Be active. Seek opportunities. Make changes as they are revealed to you. But instead of just pushing your life to be what you think it should be, the key is to pray that your life be more what He says it can be.